2011年9月25日日曜日

☆ただいまー!☆

I'm back in the states now after my 10 hour flight and 9 hour sleeping session! It feels so weird to wake up in my own bed again after only 10 days, it went by too fast. I do love how gloomy the weather is here in Southern California, I loved the dark clouds and rain when I was staying in Zuid-Holland, it was so lovely!


This post is sharing more photos from my trip, and what I saw walking the cobble-stoned streets of Amsterdam. I'm sad that I didn't really take photos of the outfits that I wore, but maybe I can look around for some!


It was very gorgeous in Amsterdam, and I enjoyed waking up early in the morning and simply taking in all of my surroundings. I was lucky to be staying in a more high end part of Amsterdam, and was far away from the hustle and bustle of big city life. There is a darkness in Amsterdam that can't be explained, but it also has such breathtaking views like this one here.


I had gotten lost too many times to count, but after a whole day of jumping on and off of so many trams and tram lines, I can truly feel at comfort with the transportation system in this big city. I was a bit surprised to know that Amsterdam (or really, the Netherlands in general) does not have English announcements; they are always in Dutch. I'm always used to Japan's system of Japanese and then English announcements following after, but I was a bit shocked to learn it was the exact opposite in the Netherlands; unless I was on a railway train.


Even after seeing so many canals, it still took my breath away to see such sights. I love Dutch architecture (or really, Amsterdam's in general) because it was always such a funny sight to see buildings literally leaning against each other. Some of them were drastically on a tilt and I wondered if people living in those buildings would be walking at an angle.


One big thing that I visited was the Anne Frank Museum. I have visited the Hiroshima Peace Memorial Museum also, so it was really just so interesting in a way to see how these two different places were both affected by the war. Going inside of the place where Anne Frank and the other numerous occupants lived while hiding out during the war was definitely an eerie feeling, and what was even weirder was that my family's name is actually Anne Frank's mother's last name as well. Although her mother was German and my family is all Dutch (on my father's side), it was still so eerie to see our name there.


It was really chilly in the Netherlands when I visited, which is a stark contrast to the current weather here in Southern California. I loved the gloomy, dark cloudy days that South Holland brought me, and waking up to light rain was always so lovely--what better way to enjoy a cup of Dutch coffee and a book?


Dutch Pancake!

The books I brought with me were Nausea by Jean-Paul Sartre, Every Man Dies Alone by Hans Fallada, and Sherlock Holmes--definitely needed those during the 10 hour plane flight to-and-back!

What I most enjoyed was also being able to see the Netherlands as someone living there, rather than a tourist. I got to visit family, along with making many new friends and networks, and have been able to open my eyes to a lot of more opportunities for my future. I really feel like the best way to see a country and learn about it's culture and people, is to really live the daily life of said place.


Graffiti in Amsterdam---some sick stuff.

I've been lucky to have been able to do that with Japan and now with the Netherlands---I really feel like the world is my playground, and there are so many more places that I want to go. As of right now, I can't see myself slowing down anytime soon, and am just going to enjoy everything that comes my way.



2011年9月19日月曜日

☆My Dutch Adventure (Part 1)☆


Hello all! Long time no see! I have now been in the Netherlands for about four days now, and am seriously contemplating about whether to come back to America or not! Well, as if I could... already have my return plane tickets but, oh well, I know I'll be back soon enough.


So far I've explored the artsy city of Delft (while also exploring the current city I live in right now), seen the gorgeous countryside of Zuid-Holland, and have tasted the most delicious pancakes I've ever eaten.

Tomorrow I shall be in The Hague seeing the commencement of the 2011-2012 year of Parliament by the Queen, visiting a Dutch University in Rotterdam on Wednesday and making a stop in Delft again to visit the very famous Johan Vermeer museum (and the sorts!), and shall then enjoy the rest of my stay in the Netherlands by exploring all there has to offer in Amsterdam.


Zuid-Holland, the Netherlands

Life here has really been so magical, everyday I wonder if I'm living in a dream. It's been everything that I've always dreamed of and definitely what I've been needing. This new change of scenery (apart from Japan) has been the medicine to really help clear my thoughts, and make me come at peace with myself, and also my future ideals. Before I left for the Netherlands, I knew that this trip would help shape my outlook on what I want to do with my life, and what I want to develop and create for myself as a person.


Zuid-Holland, the Netherlands

Not only have I learned so much about the country of where my family is directly from, but I've learned even more about the differences that there is between my American culture and the culture of my family's heritage. From the littlest things between giving three kisses on the cheek whenever you meet with friends/family here in the Netherlands, to understanding how strict American regulation is in contrast to Europe.


Delft, the Netherlands

So far I have enjoyed strolling around the city that I currently live in, and love my Dutch coffee that I first wake up with. Breathing in the cold air and seeing the dew on the leaves from the rain that came overnight is something that I feel so at peace with.


Enjoying my Dutch water!

I'm creating precious memories, everlasting friendships, and important connections for my career and future, and am loving every second of it.



2011年9月13日火曜日

☆paradise☆



With these (almost) two weeks of not blogging, I've had a lot to think about--my current situation in my life, my future, my dreams, everything. After having come back from Japan about a month ago, I feel like I'm in a slump. It's happened before--two years ago, after my first trip to Japan, I was in a deep depression haze for a good month or two.

I don't feel as though I'm depressed per say, but rather... my mind is asking me "what's next?"


"What's the next big thing, the next adventure?" is what I feel like my inner self is always asking me, day by day. And yet, I can only reply "nothing" to calm my own anxieties. Japan has been my everything since as far as I can remember, and now that this time has passed by, I feel as though a wall has come between us.



It was a blazing flame inside of me and has now become a measly spark; at times I feel as though I can't feel it anymore. If all you've done is dream and hope and work hard for your dream, and then you know the feeling after achieving it---this empty void shows itself---or rather, everything that has happened up until this point has seemed surreal.


I don't see this as a dream lost, I see this as a new beginning. Some believe change is bad, that it corrupts our beliefs and judgements, but I see it as a new way of opening your eyes to everything there is to see in the world, and everything there is to learn from it.


I love Japan with every inch of my soul---it has helped me through many trials in my life, and the Japanese culture has shaped my outlook on life and even on myself. Growing up wanting to culturally be more Japanese has made this strong connection with Japan close to my heart, and it always will be. As of right now, I have no future plans to visit Japan anytime soon, but that doesn't mean that I will throw away what ties that I have.

I still love gyaru (nothing can tear me away from this!), Gundams, Osaka, yummy Okonomiyaki, and the crazy Izakaya bars that I basically lived at on my Fridays in Nagoya, and everything that makes Japan, well, Japan----

That being said, I'm back to blogging as gal with new perspectives, ideals, and dreams to achieve.


I leave for The Netherlands on Thursday, so if I have the time, I'll be sure to blog about my stay in Europe, but if not, stay tuned!☆

Thank you for the new followers, also! I can't believe I'm 10 away from 200... crazy!♡



2011年9月3日土曜日

☆Ich liebe dich・・・☆

Finally the weekend---which means work, work, and more work! I haven't even had time to really dive into my Sherlock novel, and even worse is that I'm waiting on this current paycheck for me to buy my plane tickets for Europe. Everything is always last minute with me, I feel like笑


In other news, my current obsessions are August Diehl, MURUA-esque colored clothing items, and bottom-wood wedges. I'm really trying to try out other styles with my body type, and hopefully when I have the money, I can splurge on everything and anything笑!!

I was sad that I couldn't stream Tokyo Girl's Collection last night, I was so exhausted from work and just wanted to finally go to bed after a stressful day. I can't wait to see all the brands and new items on the runway!


I did by some wedges online from Torrid (they carry my foot size since my feet are so abnormally wide and large, ugh) and when I got them, they were damaged and didn't even fit me like how their usual shoes fit me. So I have to return them next week and I don't think I'll buy another pair until after I get back from Europe



wearing diamond lash glamorous style, nude lipstick, orange blush, and l'oreal eyeshadow~

Today I was going for more of a relaxed, glam look. I didn't put my lenses in because last time I had an issue with them, so I'm taking a bit of a break from wearing them; I used to wear them everyday so I think my eyes would love a break!

F21 jewelry, CECIL McBEE bag, F21 top~



And look what I found at Forever21! EMODA look-alike earrings, for only $3-5 with EMODA retailing it at around 2400yen! If you aren't able to buy things online or are still cringing at the yen to dollar conversion, it isn't bad to try for a substitute that looks like a brand item. If you're on a budget like me, giving up the satisfaction of not having a brand item comes after paying bills笑!!

I hope my American readers have a lovely Labor Day weekend and I hope the rest of you enjoy yours as well! I've also updated my SALES BLOG with more items like Diamond Lash, etc, and have lowered prices on some items, so be sure to check it out! 5% off for Labor Day Weekend!